Hi Kat

This letter is from myself to myself. Written in the last week of fat camp and I just got sent it this week. I am sharing as it is a reminder to me why I am doing this and how I felt when I was in the Dandenongs. Every day I face choices and I am not as strong about them as I was when I first left the New Me. I still am on the path though and am proud of that.  I also got my photos and will start posting some of them up, my first reaction to my photos was OMG I was so fat! Which I find hilarious as I knew that! Below the letter I have posted the starting point, the day I arrived at fat camp.

Hi Kat

I hope you have stuck to the plan and continue to lose weight. If not, get back to it right now!! You know how much you hate being fat and this year is about getting your life back.

I am putting in a list of reminders of why you hate being so fat so that you can focus on the change you need to do or keep doing it!

• You are unable to fly long haul due to the seat size (and it sucks doing short haul as you invade other peoples space).
• You make a habit of leaving for meetings early so you can get there in time.
• Your undies cost more than T-shirts for normal people!
• You have adapted your life to suit your mobility requirements.
• You have a bioage of 82 yet we both know in your mind you are still young
• There is a constant fear of falling in your life, even when crossing the road.
• You struggle to put your shoes on.
• It hurts when you get out of bed in the morning
• You have your own special chair at work
• You can't walk with other people
• You can't go to a concert if it is inside due to not fitting in the seat, or if you do.. remember TIm Minchin and how you got cosy to the person next to you.
• You live daily with the guilt of eating and drinking too much
• You hate the way that everyone owns your weight, including kids at shopping centre

Remember how good you felt in here after 7 hours of exercise. The warmth in your muscles, the feeling of being in the moment and the hysterical laughter? Just remember that when you don't feel like getting up in the morning or you struggle with the food. It may take slower than we both hope but you and I know that if you keep it up for 40 weeks you will be a damn sight closer than you are today. 

It should be about 12 weeks into your plan by now, by my maths that means around 25kgs. If you are there, you must be feeling different by now. 25kgs is a bag of potting mix!

Regardless of where you end up you have done things that you never thought you would, make sure you keep hunting hills and having breakthroughs (not break downs).

The fat will go eventually and life will be better. Stick with the food and continue creating fabulous dishes to share with the world.

*DANCE*

Keep moving, get the heart rate up whenever you can and as often as you can. Whether it is cleaning, gardening, walking or at the gym. Move!

Remember that I love you and so do many other people.

*ASK FOR HELP*

Be vulnerable, be brave, change your thinking. You are not alone but you alone can do this. Remember to ask for  hand up every time you fall.

*Why did I do that?*

Challenge your negative thoughts. They aren't real or truthful. They are only there to make you stronger. Make it a habit to think before every mouthful and make sure it is planned before you put it in your mouth.

*Do I want to stay fat?*

The answer will always be no, so just don't put anything in your mouth that you will regret.

40 weeks is only a little longer than a pregnancy. Stick with it and you will be rebirthed. Remember it took you 20 years to get this fat, a year to reverse it is a gift.

You're an amazing, strong, creative woman who deserves more.

Don't forget how you felt when your eyes were opened. Keep going.

Love Kat